When you think of meditation, maybe you think of sitting in the lotus position focusing on your breathing until you can empty your mind. That’s a laudable form of meditation and not one I’ve managed to do longer than approximately 20 seconds. I do, however, practice a form of Mindfulness Meditation with an intention towards corralling my thoughts in order to rewrite my habitual brain patterns.
I had a bad day, one of those days where you feel like the world is out to get you and the despair sinks in. I felt myself on the edge of the Dark Forest. When I could finally wrest myself away from obligations, I crawled into bed, curled up in the fetal position, and nearly fell into a Deep Pit.
Then meditation came to mind. I have a personal meditation that I’ve created for myself. It grounds me, brings me back to reality, and directs me to focus on finding the positive. I was no where near to feeling it, but it was worth a shot…
I am safe. I am protected. I am secure. I am safe. I am part of a bigger whole. I belong. I am safe. I am provided for. Abundance is all around me. I am safe. I am a part of the universe. I am whole. I am safe.
I go on like this until the mantras begin to soothe me. Then I look for evidence that what I am saying is true. Well, I am lying in a warm, comfortable bed in a shelter with paid rent with my faithful, loyal pup curled up next to me. I have a job today and I am grateful for the income and benefits. I have a wide network of friends and family who care about me, love me, encourage me, support me, inspire me, stand with me. I have taken measures to look out for myself, to live in a safe neighborhood, to build what safety nets I can. Through out my life, no matter what has come up, I have gotten by and everything has been okay.
I release the need to know my future. I release the need to control my life. I release the need to understand everything that happens. I release the need to know how things will work out. I release the need to control others. I release the need to understand why things are the way they are now. I release the need, just for this moment, to worry about security. I accept and receive the security that is here right now. I release the need, just for now, for acceptance. I accept the support and love that is here right now. I release my fear of lack. I am grateful for the abundance, prosperity, provision, and wealth that is mine right now. I release my fear of the unknown. I welcome the unfolding mystery that is life.
From here I work my way up the remaining chakras — an ancient model of physical and emotional centers in the body that provides a scaffolding for my meditation.
I am energetic, vibrant, healthy, joyful, creative, abundant, bursting forth with newness and life. I am powerful and capable, industrious and resourceful, radiant and assured. I am loving, kind, empathetic, and compassionate. I speak my truth boldly with inspiration and enthusiasm. I listen to my intuition and allow myself to see beyond my personal blocks. I am grateful for my wisdom and the wisdom of others.
By the time I finished my mindful mediation, I realized I wasn’t depressed anymore! I was able to get right out of bed and go about my evening. In the past, it could take me hours, days, weeks, months, or years to pull out of a downspin. This is a remarkable testament to the empowerment I have been practicing!
I encourage you to give it a try!